CEETANG http://ceetang.com Awesome Wed, 14 Jun 2017 18:53:34 +0000 en-US hourly 1 https://wordpress.org/?v=4.9.1 http://ceetang.com/wp-content/uploads/2016/03/cropped-LOGOct-32x32.png CEETANG http://ceetang.com 32 32 [Gutted, Embarrased & Ashamed … ] http://ceetang.com/gutted-embarrased-ashamed/ http://ceetang.com/gutted-embarrased-ashamed/#respond Wed, 14 Jun 2017 18:53:34 +0000 http://ceetang.com/?p=491 Not elaborating… just had to put it somewhere.

Chris
#howdidIletthishappen
#FMLIhavetoshowmyfaceagain
#ConstantWorry&ParanoidFeelingsComing

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[Epiphony of the Day] … no really I thought of it today. http://ceetang.com/epiphony-of-the-day-no-really-i-thought-of-it-today/ http://ceetang.com/epiphony-of-the-day-no-really-i-thought-of-it-today/#respond Sun, 28 May 2017 00:53:27 +0000 http://ceetang.com/?p=477

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Not sure about my colour wheel … http://ceetang.com/not-sure-about-my-colour-wheel/ http://ceetang.com/not-sure-about-my-colour-wheel/#respond Tue, 09 May 2017 00:14:37 +0000 http://ceetang.com/?p=451 I was tiring of the stark white body of my page here, but not 100% sure the grey is working either … I mean I really like the grey/orange combo generally … but my blog looks a little weird with the theme…

DOES IT MATCH OR NOT?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!

Chris
#IthinkitworksbutIdontknow

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One of my daily struggles… http://ceetang.com/one-of-my-daily-struggles/ http://ceetang.com/one-of-my-daily-struggles/#respond Wed, 03 May 2017 19:14:10 +0000 http://ceetang.com/?p=440 Living up to the shit I committed to doing and really want to do… I still choose the quick reward and easy way too often.  That needs to stop.

Make each choice count, quit being the one least invested in changing, Get shit done.

Chris
#flippersinmotion
#realitycheckyoufatfuck
#stillimprovingdespitetheserevelations

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My lack of commitment is disturbing… http://ceetang.com/my-lack-of-commitment-is-disturbing/ http://ceetang.com/my-lack-of-commitment-is-disturbing/#respond Tue, 25 Apr 2017 17:13:05 +0000 http://ceetang.com/?p=434

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[Day 9-24] #unfatme365v2.0 – it all started with a ‘snacksident’. http://ceetang.com/day-9-24-unfatme365v2-0-it-all-started-with-a-snacksident/ http://ceetang.com/day-9-24-unfatme365v2-0-it-all-started-with-a-snacksident/#respond Mon, 03 Apr 2017 15:47:56 +0000 http://ceetang.com/?p=429 Ok well the daily entries kind of took a nose dive here, but I have done ok all things considered.  Still too many cheat meals, and prep and organizing still needs works, but I am hanging in there.

2 weeks ago I made some poor decisions and either coincidentally or because them got sick.  Getting sick also seemed to cause me a big week of joint and body pain, and with the spring thaw and weather change, my probably arthritic, previously fractured ankle complete with a plate and pins started giving me a lot of grief… and yes I fully realize this is massively compounded by my weight …

So when I say it started with a ‘Snacksident’ that is literally how it felt…

So I got through it, the 2nd week was much better and I feel I am back on track.  I am not starting over again, but as phase 1 comes to a close I have not accomplished everything I set out too.  The joint pain and limited mobility was something I really underestimated so I have to rejig my plan going into phase 2, but hopefully with the treachery of being fat, poorly balanced, and sometimes hobbling on ice is gone, I can start building my mobility now.

So I am back to writing … will be back to tracking … and back to moving forward.  I don’t like having to just hang my hat on a moral victory, so I can’t call phase 1 a success, but I haven’t quit, I haven’t killed myself with self loathing and being ultra negative, I have learned a lot, and am still looking forward.

Chris
#neverquitneversatisfied
#unfatme365
#flippersup

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[Day 8] … also a little late … #unfatme365 v2.0 http://ceetang.com/day-8-also-a-little-late-unfatme365-v2-0/ http://ceetang.com/day-8-also-a-little-late-unfatme365-v2-0/#respond Sun, 19 Mar 2017 15:50:13 +0000 http://ceetang.com/?p=426 I need to start my evening updates sooner I guess I keep forgetting when I go to sleep early.

Good day … hung out with my friend enjoyed a cheat meal, and got my groceries for the week so I can stay on top of things … Starting off the week looking forward to building on what I have done already.  And looking for a much better week 2.

Onward and upward, keep pushing.

Chris
#unfatme365
#flippersinmotion

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[Day 7] a little late … #unfatme365 v2.0 http://ceetang.com/day-7-a-little-late-unfatme365-v2-0/ http://ceetang.com/day-7-a-little-late-unfatme365-v2-0/#respond Sat, 18 Mar 2017 14:46:29 +0000 http://ceetang.com/?p=424 Well the work week ended alright, definitely some angst and unknown with what was going on there, but so far seems good which is a relief.

Overall the week was much improved, not perfect by any stretch, but something I can build on.  SO on to week 2.  Lets keep this train on the tracks and moving forward.

Chris
#unfatme365
#flippersinmotion

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[Day 6] #unfatme365 v2.0 http://ceetang.com/day-6-unfatme365-v2-0/ http://ceetang.com/day-6-unfatme365-v2-0/#respond Fri, 17 Mar 2017 02:50:06 +0000 http://ceetang.com/?p=421 Today was much like yesterday, it went well overall, but done in when I got home … stuck on track though so that part is positive.

Need to have a good weekend to get the home environment, organization, and prep on track, need to stay ahead of the game and find a good routine, I still am fighting it some.

I also need to bear down mentally for the weekend, the first weekend is where v1.0 really derailed.  Failing to take care of the things above … so that is the main thing, transfer these good feelings and decent few days into something more sustained.

I sit and ponder mistakes, I punish myself inside for them, I turn it into a downward spiral until I reach for a quick easy relief, a temporary good feeling… but that shortly makes it worse.

I have to be accountable for my actions, but the punishment can’t be internal, it can’t fester and be piled onto, it has to go outward, in the form of working harder, and pushing myself to be better.  To atone for errors, not swim in self hating guilt until it’s overwhelming and causes failure.

I am right there … do I dig in, or do I cycle downward?  I have to prove it with action, but I finally believe I am capable of digging in.

Chris
#unfatme365
#flippersup
#punishconstructive

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[Day 5] Late update … it’s Mel’s fault … #unfatme365 v2.0 http://ceetang.com/day-5-late-update-its-mels-fault-unfatme365-v2-0/ http://ceetang.com/day-5-late-update-its-mels-fault-unfatme365-v2-0/#respond Thu, 16 Mar 2017 17:36:31 +0000 http://ceetang.com/?p=418 Day 5 was good overall, made some good meals, ended the day completely wiped out though.  Not sure if I am still getting used to Daylight Savings or my program or something else, but I felt like I had no energy.

Former me would have 100% ordered supper, and while slicing vegetables seems like way too much work, I did opt in for some grilled chicken and salsa… Salsa the savior of maintaining your healthy plan (for the most part its pretty on track) when cooking seems so daunting.

I am blaming Mel’s Photoshop project demands for missing the update.


How I looked when I realized I forgot to post again…

Chris
#unfatme365
#flippersinmotion

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